La Meglio Gioventu

I'm too much like Matteo, it isn't a good sign.
I frequently push friends and families away, forbid myself to talk to them, trust them.

Those moments when Matteo made the irrational decisions, when he wanted to reach out but refrained himself from doing so. It's heartbroken.
Matteo is a complex and almost incompressible person, his actions were full of contradiction. He loved his families, but kept his love from showing.