I've had enough

Seriously, how long am I going to suffer?
Every time I think of them, I feel pain, chill.

Humiliation.

I do not want to see you again.

If that is what a friendship should feel like, I do not wish to have friends.

Get out of my life, get out of my sight, get out of my mind.

People always says, "out of sight, out of mind."
I really wish it is the case, and I believe as long as I keep my nose down, pretending that I'm numb and dumb, they will let me go.

Obviously not.

Why show your gratitude for me right now? For I don't want it.
Why bring out those past happy memories now? For I want to forget.
Why you seem to care? Because you do not.
You only care about your own benefits.

I'm just a jester, a laugh.
I don't want to be monk at anymore.

I don't wish to hear anything you say, your advises are nothing but insults.
I don't trust you anymore, you are not a friend.
You all are not to be trusted.

I've had enough.
Everything changed, rotten, broken.
I cannot go back.